Life

No graphic for this post today !! But its 2016 and already I’m changing things around .

I got into oracle cards and  crystal healing . ( Ill blog about it monthly and talk about what Ive learned a long the way ) I  decided it was finally a thing I should look into . I had a rough December . My lupus acted up and I got stressed out . I’m not a huge fan of  stress because it makes my lupus act up even more  .

AND the big one . I decided to change my way of thinking. I’m no longer allowing bad and negativity to be around me . I’m learning to grow a tougher skin and work on things I need to make 2016 a better year  for both me and my businesses . Iv taken the time to really work on the small things everyday (will Monday- threw Saturday ).

This song is on a massive loop lately LMAO !!

And I started my book/story …YES  another one . I started this one trying not to make the main character nothing like me and shes about 40% -60% me  to be honest shes  based on the dreams or ideas I had in my 20s but shes a 30 sometime like me lol  and lives in California . WOW I  hope didn’t give out to much .  And I named her Dana . I might change the name lol  Ive been writing it for almost two months and I’m roughly about 67,446 words in !! Hopefully this  year Ill get it done . Its taken me to places mentally that i have pushed to the side and its  taken me to a world that I knew  was out there  but haven’t seen it with my two own eyes . Its been a breathe of fresh air and a awesome path in this new fun creative idea that’s part of my life right now .  I cant wait for the world to read it . I hope it brings awareness to the world of inner pain to light but from a ” light and simple” way at looking at it . That’s all I’m going to say about that lol

And I  found :

This is so far one of my favorites :

So hulu just added a add on in this case its Showtime and I have it for free for a month . Woot !!

A while back the walking dead was over and I think house of cards was back and I binged watched all the episodes  then outlander was done before that game of thrones , than big bang theory and scandal and I said good by hart of dixie (  the ending was perfect)  and  next thing I know orange the new black was back .  I just sat threw 4 seasons of house of lies  and watching Top gear . Still working my way threw season 22 and I’M BORED  with TV right now lol No I’m not joking. Masters of sex is back and I’m glad . Something to watch .. It seems every once in a while I go threw this . I even went back and skipped threw naruto shippuden ! You know its bad when I go back to something I promised myself I would watch when I was ready .  BUT I’m enjoying talking about the show with the BFF !

I’m trying to get back into penny dreadful and it didn’t work ! AGGGGHHHH / So does this ever happen to you during the summer ? Are there any new shows you plan on watching ?

In  30 days  I’ll be heading to Mexico with my dad . I told him months ago I wanted to tag a long .  I’m really excited and believe it or not its been on my “wish/bucket list” to go on a trip with my dad .And what do you know its happening.So  ill be getting on a plane from Sacramento  and flying to Guadalajara, Mexico . And then getting on a bus for what seems like for ever .  I think its a 4-6 hour bus  ride unless my mom lied to me .From that bus ride its another maybe 20-30 minutes to the small town my grandma and the rest of my family on my dads side lives at.

Ive decided to add the international plan to my ipad it wont be cheap but ill have a little internet.So heres my list of stuff I need to get done before I leave:

  *****ADD INTERNATIONAL PLAN THE DAY WE LEAVE ******

1.  buy luggage ( I don’t have any and I think I should buy my own .. I don’t like this idea “Ill let you borrow mine” I need  a set.
2.  By a bag big enough for a carry on bag .  and a bag big enough i can carry my ipad and my stuff in while I go places with my family .
3. Buy  battery for iphone and Ipad .. I got the nook app .Ive been told there’s “wi-fi” on the buses but im turning off the data ..I can read 50 shades for a few hours right ? or whatever book I half way reading lol
4. buy some socks
5. Buy travel kit-stuff
6. Make sure to have enough meds for my trip
7. Make sure to buy sunscreen and bug spray
8. Add some funds to my paypal account before I go . There’s a Starbucks at the airport in Guadalajara.. Unless its now gone.I was back there in 2006 I think it was . ( goes and looks up the airport . There’s a subway and a Starbucks !!)
9.  Make sure to pack enough clothes
10.  pack shorts and enough tees
11.  pack nightmare blanket
12. pack my makeup
13. brush
14. Find a small pillow i need support for my knees .. no support no actual sleep

If theres wifi around or the internet cafe ( if its still around) .. Ill be blogging when I can . But don’t expect to much blog posts while im gone 😀 I might just post pictures on instagram 🙂

Before age 20 I was like most girls .I wanted a boyfriend who was cool and outgoing and maybe a jock and had a awesome car.

Well come age 20 i meet that cool and out going guy who happened to be a football player in high school. He was into a lot of stuff and was a huge fan of Stargate.

So being i wanted to be a “good girlfriend” I  started watching . I loved the Movie. Our Friday nights were Star gate nights . at the time  StarGate SG1 was in its 3 rd or 4th season .I become a fan . Now i wont say he turned me into a nerd . I was a nerd WAY before he come into the picture . I was in band for about 9 years did that thing they call marching band and even waited in line for Star wars Ep 1 and two  at the midnight showing in guess what  in George Lucas hometown . Which happens to me the same town i was born in .And was my home for about 5 years :0)

The latest “it” move came out we went . Iron man we went . Saw avatar not once but 3 times and even the 3d ones lol The latest alien vs predator came out  we went . Transformers came out …. Guess who went we did.   Somewhere along during that time we started playing world of Warcraft and we played together in the same guild and raided for about 3 years before he come bored with the game. He taught me EVERYTHING about gaming .I would sit for hours just watching him play and i dont remember if i asked questions NOW a days some times i watch my friend plat whatever they are playing ..and sometimes i ask questions ..I CANT HELP IT  . In the beginning he let me play need for steed underground and I LOVED IT ..i got really good at drifting lol This was way before the PS3 came out .

What dating a nerd really taught me was .I was already a gamer before supreme commander  way before boys become important .before kindergarten was a thing. I was a little girl trying to get to level 2 of super mario on the NES .But it also taught me that theres two kinds of gamers .PC gamers and console gamers and for the most part it was pretty much a given i was a pc gamer because that fit my personality the most .

It also taught me that when Im in a relationship with a fellow nerd whos also a gamer . I open my self up to new nerdy things but i stick to my guns.  I like games where i blow stuff up maybe drive in a car and run over hookers ( holy crap did i just admit i liked that ..OMG i just did ..silly GTA) that  evil is fun sometimes and that good is ok lol .

But it opened my eyes because Im the kind of Girlfriend a lot of gamer guys would love to have . Smart , funny , and a  gamer and who loves awesome music too  I guess its not a bad thing that im not bad on the eyes either lol. BUT it also taught me its ok to be a nerd and that being a nerd is much more then saying it .Living as a nerd has been awesome .

The only thing i decided ages ago when i meet the next love . Is that he likes movies  and sushi and asian food . That he loves to travel to places like san fran and likes walks to the park and last but not least LOVES CATS !! Currently not looking for a SO .. but looking for a kitten because i wanna have a army of evil black cats and maine coons kittahs

So years ago….. I become part of that group were a relationship you were part of for what seemed like FOREVER. ended .

While EVERYONE and their aunt tells you ‘  Everything will be ok .. trust me i been there”  of course thats NOT what you want to hear . you could be on top of a volcano and i bet you could still hear people saying that. You then start listening to music and this one song sticks out . it somehow smooths your hearts little breaks .

but then you find the perfect break up song :  ” I would like to introduce  ‘

I probably listened it to about 10-30 times before i said ‘ ENOUGH OF THIS CRAP…if i dont stop listening to it i will end up hating it lol”

then this happened :   LOL!

This part

I’m Feeling It
I’m Feeling A Change
I’m Feeling It In The Air
I’m Feeling It I’m Feeling A Change
I’m Feeling It In The Air ,To Look The Other Way
To Get What You Want
Throw Out Your Troubles
Find Your Song
Cause There’s A Change
Change In The Air
In The Air
In The Air

You cant be wonder women to everyone else  until you become wonder women for your self first .

So theres a im thankful for : going on online so heres mine 🙂  Enjoy

Day #1 : Im thankful for my parents : For allowing me to really understand reglion on my own terms !

day #2 Im thankful for being able to really live my life on my own terms even though the lupus is always fighting me  .

day #3 im thankful for : The people who have impacted my life .. Few have allowed me to open my eyes and few have allowed to me be more opened mind . Few have shown me how to fight for what i want and believe  few have shown me that its ok to hope and dream few have been there at my darkest times .. few have thought me what i want in a significant other.

#4 for my medium size of BFFS: you guys are awesome ..some i know locally some from wow and online but you guys are awesome .

•  Monday  80s day
• Tuesday – stuff that i listed to while at Joho ( in high skool )
• Wednesday very inappropriate song day
• Thursday 70s
• Friday I dont care day
• Saturday Ghetto day or AKA rap day
• Sunday – 90s day  aka Alternative and Ska day